Friday, February 13, 2009


My goal is to blog every Friday. Most likely it will be a post of random thought or ideas.

So today I am going to blog about things I am looking forward to.

1. My husband coming home from his training. Brian has been gone for 2 days. We had and argument before he left and I have emotional felt like crap since he left. We have such high expectations for one another that we always disappoint the other and don't even know we are doing so. I love Brian more than I can ever express and can't wait for him to be home.

2. Baseball season. I love baseball. I an obsessed with the Red Sox. Pitchers and Catchers reported to Spring train this week which means baseball will be back very soon. Yeah!

3. Spring! It has been warm the past few days and a lot of snow is melting. I know we will probably get more snow but at least I know that spring and warmer weather is right around the corner.

4. The weekend. Enough said there.

5. February 21st. I have a surprise for my husband. It is his Valentines Day gift. My parents are coming down this weekend so I made plans for next weekend. I hope he loves his gift.

6. For the Fedex guy to deliver my espresso/latte maker. I love Caramel Lattes so I spoiled and bought a maker. Why should I keep giving my money to Dunkin Donuts.

7. March 11th. That is my next transplant appointment.

8. For custody to be settled with my Nieces. My sister goes to court in March to see if she will be awarded primary custody. Please pray that she gets her daughters. They want to be with her and her ex is being an ass about it!

Well that is all for today folks. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Friday, February 6, 2009


It has been a while since I blogged but really need to write today. So a this post will be random and about things that are controlling my thoughts.

As many know, a fellow CFer is fighting for her life. She was in the process of being evaluated for double lung and liver transplant. I hope you all can take a minute of your day to say a prayer for Jenn and her family.

I have been very lucky that the current economy has not effected mine or my husband's jobs. I am definitely not taking this for granted. My parent live in a mill town and I fear for my dad's job everyday. The paper industry is taking a big hit and the mill my dad works for has been laying off a lot of people.

My sister, Melissa has been in a custody dispute with her ex-husband for over a year now. She has been trying to settle outside of court for the sake of the girls but her ex won't even talk with her about changes. So he is going to drag those poor girls into court and make them testify. That is just wrong and they don't deserve that.

I wish I was not adding extra stress on my friends and family with my health. During the past year, I have been preparing for a transplant. This is such an emotional roller coaster for everyone. Anytime I run a fever, my family gets concerned. I am not on the active call list yet because I am not 100% convinced that the time is now. I am going but my gut feeling which has never steered me wrong in the past.

I have this stupid eye twitch that I have had for almost 3 weeks. I am dragging myself to my PCP Monday to see if it is stress or eye strain.

Have I said how awesome my husband is lately. He knows that this time of year is rough for me. I get the winter blues and take it out on him. Earlier this week he brought me home roses. They are so beautiful. Then he wanted to surprise me so he bought me a birthday cake and a birthday gift. This sounds funny to most because my birthday was in December but we have always waited until his birthday, Feb 11th, to exchange gifts. Well, he already knows what I am giving him so he figured he would surprise me and give me my gift early. This is a very welcome surprise because he is always late on my gift. He knows I love gold and diamonds. He bought me a past, present and future diamond necklace. How fitting with everything we are going though. I truly love him.

I hope you enjoyed this look into my thoughts. Please tell everyone that you love how much they mean to you today!