Don't let yesterday use up too much of today.

I had an interesting talk with one of my close friends last night. It was about the past. She brought up some events that happened in the past and wondered if she would of done things differently. I reminded her of this quote "Don't let yesterday use up too much of today" that I had posted on facebook a few days earlier. After I hung up, I realized how we both interpreted the same events in the past in 2 different ways. Dear friend from this conversation, if you read this call me and I'll tell you what I mean.

I have to remind myself of this quote often. My entire life, I made 110% effort in my health and now everyday I am reminded that my lungs are crap. I think we can always look back and regret some decisions that we made but we can't change it so why waste time being upset about them.

What I have done in the past when I have a regret is ask myself "how can I change my life now to make the situation better." For example, in high school this same friend and I grew apart. Though we were always in each others life the amount of time we spent talking and seeing each other diminished. We both went to different colleges, made new friends and I moved to a different town. I felt really bad about where this relationship went. We were not just best friends, I considered her my third sister. She had always loved me even when I spit on her pillow. So a few years ago, I realized I needed that relationship back. She was one of the first people I opened up to about my feelings of needing a transplant. Yes, we don't see each other nearly as often I would like but we talk several times a day either by phone or instant messaging. I realized that maybe I didn't put enough effort into our relationship back in high school and college so I am trying to make up for. Though, we both have our quirks, we have both accepted each other for who we are.

The interesting thing in a friendship is what one person thinks is a fault, the other may find it an asset.

So the moral of this blog is...I couldn't change the past but I hope I learned from it so I can make a better future.

So what regret are you going to learn from today?